Not Ashamed To Be Me

This is going to be a way to fully understand what I am. I am not ashamed to be me. I don't make any apologies for my actions or excuses for my autism or other areas of individualism. I feel indebted to making the world a better place because of this and feel not ashamed to be extraordinary and changed to why I do the things I do. I don't care what other people think of me and I haven't for a long time. Why? Because of being uninhibited and embracing the standards of who the world has made me be. It is especially worthwhile to have more standards for the world and continue to make the world a better place and love for what I want to do, but it is also extraordinary to think of ways to make me better and continue to. Life is a journey and not a sprint and embracing life and playing the hand that I was dealt is one of the best ways that I can continue to live life fully and celebrate vivaciously. And that can give me comfort.

The Most Important Thing Is To Be Me

In these past few weeks it's been a journey. I have been infinitely more vulnerable than I ever have been, just to think that it will help in the long run. I have fully appreciated life and love for those who are going through the same thing. I have laughed, cried, and had bad days, good days, and terrible days. But there have been more bad than good. It's because I'm struggling with depression and am just getting better that it's that way. This realization that I needed to take antidepressants is a powerful one and a step that I most likely wouldn't of taken a few years ago. It takes a person to fully want to get better and see the light at the end of the tunnel. And furthermore, I describe my good days as being average to where I need to be these past few weeks. Am I getting better? Yes. Have I arrived? I don't fully know yet. Life is a journey and through these ups and downs, easy ways and hard ways, the most important thing is to be fully dependent on who I am to be me.