Selfulness Perfectionistic Ideals, Autism, For Me It Computes

I am a selfless individual. I'm a perfectionist. And I have autism. For me, it computes. I get frazzled when I don't do well, regardless of what it is, I am fiercely competitive with sports, and I feel like if I don't get a B or an A, regardless of the subject, I start to take things personally and ask if I'm going to pass the class. Also, there is the fact that I have intensely high expectations of not only myself but others, and that sometimes gets in the way of the extensive expressions of my niceness and my productivity. I'm one of the most intense, most immense nice guys you'll meet, but I don't let that get in the way of meeting my goals. I want to continue to strengthen my life towards a perfect resolution, however, as an extroverted former people-pleasure that doesn't want to get pushed around and needs to practice boundaries, there are certain things I can and cannot do to help with people. And there are pieces of realization along with that. For whatever reason, life is complicated, and people are complicated, but I have to realize that I can't please everybody and I have to be myself and be true to myself while showing a sense of selffulness and living in the now and helping out people in ways that are timeless truths. I feel a sense of justice that pangs sometimes deliberately in my heart and continues to roar out like a lion and live, laugh, and love greater than almost any lamb I know. the sense of peace is great, but also the sense of self and the sense of calming in my life when I'm able to do things well. And that's life's greatest peacefulness is being your true self and selfful along with it. Stay tuned for the next week's installment: genuine friendships and why everyone needs them.